Hopingforhope:
Ok this is hard but...
3 days ago I accepted I need help for my major depression,grief,and anxiety. I imagine in the next few weeks I will be prescribed some meds. So I suppose I'm wondering is it a good idea for me to start? Will it be too much? This is the self doubt/ depression I believe because perhaps, in fact I am sure this could and will help. Furthermore I am 205, 5'10, and 36 the calc. says I need roughly 2800 cals. Is this too much? My goal is to get between 185-191 ish and kinda ripped. Any ideas? also I've thought maybe I can lift weights like 2x a week to keep some muscle? Is that realistic, I truly need to change my life in many areas. If I hadn't gone for help I thik i'd be dead in a year, and dont get me wrong this is only day 3, I am by no means positive..I'll cry at multiple point at some poit today. Sorry to be a downer need help and support thanks alot truly....Paul
Dude hang in there and just do it. Embrace that it's gonna hurt for the first week. (The first week really was rough for me. and I'm 6'3" and about 260, and flexible as your average steel rod.)
Also, I've had some depression in my life, and the only thing that really helped without going the chemical route was to get outside. Not excercising out side, I'm way too self concious for that, but I would go wander in the park, and try to identify trees and even climbed a few. (I'm sure a 36 year old in a tree looks rediculous, but I sure had fun doing it.) I would go to the BBQ pits with some scraps I found in the bushes and just start a fire. (very small in the BBQ pits just to prove I could.)
A year of being outside and even my wife mentioned that I was not nearly the negative person I had been. I noticed that the holidays were easier.
One last thign I did to kick the depression. Whenever anyone asked me how I was I would always say, "I woke up this morning it's a good day." Even when I didn't feel it. I got bored of that, and tried to find a more creative way to say it. The latest is "I'm still looking down on the grass."
If you want, find me and buddy me. I'd be happy to help anyway I can.