Whether positive or negative, an addiction is an addiction and you want to keep thinking about it or doing it or both.
So it is with me and running, but a long time ago, my gift was taken away from me in a split second and I had to settle for running for the pure joy of running.
Then even that was taken away from me as my body has gone through the mother of all battles just to keep going every day.
Then there was a breakthrough and I started feeling better, so I started running and then, my left knee started to hurt and I learned a painful lesson. When you are deep in a hole, you can't start running just because you think that you will get out of the hole. The only thing that will happen is that you will hit the sides of the hole!
Enter the mother of all challenges to win the mother of all battles - P90X2! On Saturday, I had to do a workout for the group workout and all of a sudden I thought, "Why not the X2?"
Well that was yesterday and I did X2 Core this morning and have X2 Total Body scheduled for tomorrow. I have given in and I am not going to try to run until I get a substantial amount of strength, flexibility and endurance back, but that is not giving up. When I reach the point where I can add in some running, maybe after the first of the year, I will have the freedom to run because I will no longer be in a hole but rather basking in the light of regained health and fitness.
Giving in and letting my obsession go to gain something even greater...