Day 6 - P90X Kenpo
Supplements - mixed w/ 9 ozs. water
1 scoop Recovery Drink
1 scoop Whey Protein
1 scoop Strength & Muscle Formula
Well, it finally came.
One of those days where I just don't feel 'right'. I haven't had one of these in awhile, so it's kind of hard to remember what I need. I worked Kenpo HARD, but about 3/4 of the way thru, stuff started creeping into my head. And then it just kept digging...
I pushed myself to finish, but just didn't feel right when I was done. I don't know if it's the kind of day it is outside or what. I just don't feel motivated today. All the stuff that piled up over the last 3 years or so is boiling to the surface, reminding me of who I was before.
It's kind of like that good angel/bad angel on my shoulders, except the good angel is taking an early 3-day weekend, leaving the other guy to have free reign over my thoughts. It's one of those moments where I feel like everything I've done in the past... everything I've tried... just isn't enough. I start to feel like I'M not enough...
Part of my journey out of the mess I created was feeling sorry for myself too much... looking for someone or something to pull me up out of it. But when a Pity Party falls in the forest and people get sick of hearing about it...? All you're left with are your thoughts...
One thing that's different this time is I know I can pull out of this... before it wasn't like that. I'd go for days like this, and it ld just snowball thru the weekend and into the next week.
But not this time... because I know I'm better than that now. Everybody deserves better...
I want people that can identify with what I'm talking about to know there is a chance... you can do anything you set your mind to... never give up on yourself.
What your mind believes your life achieves.
P90X Day 6 - Kenpo... DONE.