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Life has a funny way of throwing curves at you. Some of us handle them better than others. I'm one of the one's that didn't handle it well. One day I was single and climbing the corporate ladder, the next, I was a married, full time, stay at home mom. The transition was not an easy one for me.

I was the assistant controller for a prestigious retailer in Bal Harbor, Florida. I

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Life has a funny way of throwing curves at you. Some of us handle them better than others. I'm one of the one's that didn't handle it well. One day I was single and climbing the corporate ladder, the next, I was a married, full time, stay at home mom. The transition was not an easy one for me.

I was the assistant controller for a prestigious retailer in Bal Harbor, Florida. I went from crunching numbers and meeting deadlines to tending to a baby who wouldn’t allow me to put her down, and spending my days with virtually no adult interaction. It was tough, and as I slowly lost my identity, I slipped quietly into a deep depression.

As the years flew by and my family grew, I fell into the tedious humdrum of everyday life. I found myself going through the motions with no real direction or even any emotion…just numb. I was now a full time, stay at home, home schooling mom to three beautiful girls! AND, I was missing out on my own life! I don’t have to tell you what little support I received from those whom I love regarding the home schooling. It was difficult enough knowing that they didn’t approve, let alone having to hear it through a third party how little they thought of me. With my integrity being questioned time and time again, I withdrew from family and friends, and I spiraled deeper into depression.

At a family function I overheard a dear, old school friend whisper to another, “wow, she’s really destroyed her body!” You would think that her statement would kick my rear into gear, right? Wrong…just more deep self loathing.

You are all aware of what accompanies depression, right? Sudden weight gain, sleeplessness or a constant desire to sleep, irritability, anxiety, self hatred, thoughts of suicide…and the list goes on. I would look in the mirror and not recognize myself. Here I used to be this 110lb girl who cared about the way she presented herself to this overweight, frumpy, woman who would rather avoid mirrors altogether! I really, really hated myself.

My husband was at a loss and together we decided that we would enroll the girls in public school. I thought, for sure, this was the answer! I was finally free to go back to work. I was wrong. A year went by, and despite my 15yrs of experience in accounting, the only employer who scheduled an interview was mediocre at best. Then, and wouldn’t you know it, I found myself pregnant with our fourth daughter. Unfortunately for me, I did not see this as a blessing. All I could see was finding me at home, alone, caring for another child.

Boy do I ever regret that thought process! I’m a chicken when it comes to needles. My first three were born natural, but Kylie was an emergency c-section. You see, she was wedged in my pelvic cavity. When the doctor was finally able to pull her free, she was gone. Even today, the image of my beautiful daughter’s purple, flaccid, lifeless body being wheeled away still haunts me. I’m constantly filled with the shame of what I could have done differently. I am very grateful that the Lord had a different plan, and that the medical professionals were able to bring her back. She is my saving grace.

That was four years ago, and despite my efforts to stave off the depression on my own and lose the weight I had gained, nothing seemed to work for me. I tried this diet and that diet, but my weight yo-yoed. I tried many different exercise programs, but found that nothing really kept me motivated long enough to follow through. Then I found Beachbody.com and my wonderful coach, Cammie. Her story alone is super motivating!! She along with all the other members at Beachbody and their enthusiasm is amazing. I have finally realized that the one key factor to being successful at anything you do is changing your mindset. Through their encouragement, and the fabulous products, I have finally given my life a focus and direction. I am proud to be an independent coach for beachbody.com. I may not have reached my fitness goal as of yet, but the one thing I KNOW is that with the support and encouragement from my Beachbody friends, the great workout programs and Shakeology, nothing is impossible!

Okay, gotta go….time to press play and Bring It!

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