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Hi! I am extremely motivated to change my life, that's for sure!!! I used to be so full of energy and life while in high school and college, but when my direction in college changed due to money issues (my program was a private college, $24,000 per year for 3 more years), I lost my way.

I started hopping from job to job, school to school, desperate to find my way. I eventually gained even

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Hi! I am extremely motivated to change my life, that's for sure!!! I used to be so full of energy and life while in high school and college, but when my direction in college changed due to money issues (my program was a private college, $24,000 per year for 3 more years), I lost my way.

I started hopping from job to job, school to school, desperate to find my way. I eventually gained even more weight from alcohol, poor eating habits, and lack of exercise. Then, at the age of 27 in 2004, I was diagnosed with severe panic disorder. I was just sitting at my computer when I dropped to the floor and fought for my life, or so it seemed, for 4 ½ grueling hours. That night changed my life, as I started having panic attacks every night and forgot what it was like to just fall asleep… plus, I learned what fear was all about. I ended up taking the anti-anxiety medicine but rejected the anti-depressants after having 2 very bad experiences (nightmares for 4 months!!!). I made some changes back then, such as ending a relationship and quitting my job as a recruiter. Recently, I met someone great who tries to understand what I go through. In fact, we’re engaged to be married August 16th! My fiancé is doing the Power 90 program, too, as we would like to look good for our wedding. While I am using a picture of a beach (and pictures of the guys from 300) for motivation, there is no way we can afford to even see the ocean for our honeymoon..  I hope to see the ocean sometime in the next few years, though, especially to showoff my new body in 90 days from writing this!

In a nutshell, I cope with panic disorder everyday. Do you know what it’s like to fear your own heartbeat? To think that I am mostly “normal” and can fit into society again boggles my mind somedays. I always told myself that a natural approach is best. So far, I’ve done everything that I know except get into great shape. I hope, more than anyone can know, that I have what it takes to do this program and that this program will give me what I need in life. Peace and stability, as I lack both… That being said, I am a very positive person who’s been beaten up a bit. My panic disorder makes my heart and adrenaline spike, so the workouts will be extraordinarily difficult to adapt to, but I will persevere!

I am currently a recruiter for a company that hires people in the information technology field to work at the Mayo Clinic and IBM. I love the job, but it is extremely hard! I’m good with people, but I am tired all day long. There is no room to be tired at this job!

So, that’s my background with my motivation… Now, the hobbies that enrich my life! I have been playing guitar for 16 years now and even played in a band for 5 years, writing my own music… I used to like to go out to the clubs a lot, however, I've become somewhat lame and have been staying home in an effort to be healthier, although I feel that I've just become lazy while dealing with my medical issues. :) Since I’ve bounced around a lot from job to job and along with my health issues, I started reading enlightening books about getting out of the rat race and how to retire early. Robert Kyosaki and others… I want this more than anything, but I don’t have the stability or confidence to do this, yet… I believe that I will reshape my life and would like to talk to other like-minded people. Also, feel free to ask me about panic and share thoughts and stories if you like. I’m looking for assistance and am happy to provide it!

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