My name is shanna, age 20, I live in California, and honestly cant imagine
living anywhere else, except maybe for 3 months out of the year in australia
since I have so much family over there (born in new zealand). I have always
ate healthy my whole life, my mom never allowed junk food in the house and if
there were cookies or cake (every now and then) she baked it. Super healthy
kid, and
My name is shanna, age 20, I live in California, and honestly cant imagine
living anywhere else, except maybe for 3 months out of the year in australia
since I have so much family over there (born in new zealand). I have always
ate healthy my whole life, my mom never allowed junk food in the house and if
there were cookies or cake (every now and then) she baked it. Super healthy
kid, and active but still had a lil chubs ever since 5th grade, always have had
an "average" body.
When I hit Highschool and no longer brought my lunch is when the bad
eating habits started to form, never weighed more then 150 though but at
5'6" I wouldnt call that thin. I had a rude wake up call when I was 17
weighing in at 195, almost brought me to tears that I could almost weigh
200, I started walking for an hour everyday and ate much much better
dropped 40lbs in 4 months and kept it off. Felt good being thin and got alot
more attention from it, went on dates and was feeling great about myself.
May 2006 weighing between 147-150 riding my bike to and from work,
which added up to two hours a day and eating healthy all came to a hault
when I met my current boyfriend, he treated me like a queen we went out to
eat all the time, sat on the couch and watched tv just enjoying oursleves and
'being lazy'. Mind you this boy is 6'3" 155lbs and eats almost everything in
sight, our relationship progressed fast, and before you know it were living
together and hes driving me to and from work, out goes my exercise, and
then july 2007 I again stepped on the scale and to my suprise weighed 179,
shocked that all my hard work was ruined and only had myself to blame. Saw
a YBB infomercial and I use to LOVE yoga so I called at 2am to order it, a
week later I jumped on it, lost 15lbs in a month and a half, then had a trip to
australia for a family reunion. After I came back I just lost motivation and
stopped completely, started feeling sorry for myself(during that time my
grandad who also lived in aussie passed two weeks after my return). After
that I worked out off and on, more off then on, but you get the idea, then end
of may I made myself get on the scale again and to my suprise weighed 205,
I never have weighed that much, but again its my fault, I can no longer live in
denial city, I have had a wake up call, I CANT put this off anymore, I JUST
cant. Well I did put it off for 4 more months and guess what, it didnt help I
weigh 212 now. Once again I had many pity partys, but it ends here, it ends
now. I have a new job and a new car, so why not a new me, a fresh start. I
have learned that its not really about being skinny, its about being healthy,
and taking care of yourself, to feel good about yourself, and thats what I want
to do, I want to love myself like I did once before. Every day can be a
struggle, but what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, and I want to be
strong. 30 days from now will start showing the marathon to a new me.
