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Ok, so here’s my story. I have always been thin, well, up until my mid twenties that is. In high school I was always involved in sports and was always able to eat what ever I wanted whenever I wanted. However, even then, I did not feel like I was in shape. When I was 15 I developed a seizure disorder. This was pretty much the end of my involvement of any type of physical activity until P90, mainly because of fear.

When my son was born in 2002 I had gotten heavier than I had ever been in my life. My self esteem was down to an all time low. Not only because I was heavy, but because I just hadn’t felt HEALTHY in so darn long. I saw an infomercial for P90 in the middle of the night while feeding my son. Something in my made me order it even though I was literally scared of the thought of getting through the exercise. But, from the first day I pushed that play button, I loved it. The great thing about it was that I could go at my own pace. It felt so good just to DO something for myself. I made it through those 90 days and felt better than I ever had in my life. I lost 20 lbs and actually started seeing MUSCLES. Those were so long gone I forgot I even had them!! After P90 I ordered several other Beachbody workouts and loved them as well. During this time, I became involved with the message boards and found friends among the “Lightening Strikes Again” thread. I have been being motivated by these amazing people for around 4 years!!

Well, as it happens, life hit me. I became pregnant again in 2005. I packed on the pounds even more this time. After my daughter was born I was confident I could get it right off again with the help of Beachbody and my message board friends. Well, stuff happens. My marriage was going through some rough times, I was stressed, unhappy and I turned to food for comfort. At this point, I did not even care about myself. To make a long story short, my husband left the marriage and that put me in an even more awful emotional state. For me, food is somehow tied up with emotions as happens with a lot of us. It just could not find the energy or the strength to get myself healthy. The adjustment to being a single parent was hard. I already felt disgusting, ugly and lazy because I was not exercising. But now my self esteem was even worse. I just did not care any more. I tried. I kept starting and stopping. Starting and stopping. Each time I went to the boards for support, I was never judged and always welcomed back with support and caring. I think that really helped me to keep going. During this process I discovered that I needed more help because I could not handle this alone. I went to my doctor and found I suffered from depression. It’s embarrassing to talk about this, but I hope maybe I can help someone else out there who is going through the same thing. I found some medicine that really started to help me get to a point where I began to care about myself again. I started to realize that even though I was basically living my life for my children, I was not being the best mother I could because I was not healthy on the inside OR the outside. I had to start taking care of myself as well. I started SI6 and got back on the message boards. I am almost to the middle of the progam now and I feel good. Yes, it’s still a struggle daily and my journey is far from over. In fact, I hope it’s never over, but I am doing something to make myself healthy and that is all that matters.

So, now that I have written this book, please know that it’s important to never give up. It’s ok to fall down and go backwards as long as you always keep trying to move forward. Get on those boards and look to your friends for support, look at the success stories. Take it one day at a time. If I can do this anyone can!