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Where do I start. My battle with weight gain has been going on for the last couple of years and more. My most difficult time is during the schol year because I am working two different jobs and going to nursing school in Boston but live on Cape Cod. My commute to school is sometimes two hours ore more depending on the traffic or if I drive or take some type of alternative transportation. To make

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Where do I start. My battle with weight gain has been going on for the last couple of years and more. My most difficult time is during the schol year because I am working two different jobs and going to nursing school in Boston but live on Cape Cod. My commute to school is sometimes two hours ore more depending on the traffic or if I drive or take some type of alternative transportation. To make matters worse, I had to move over the last fall semester because my father's house (whom I was living with)was in the process of going into foreclosure and because of this I had to give up my dog (who means the world to me) and give him to the MSPCA for adoption (luckily he was adopted and is currently living with a great family(I love you Magnum)) Semester after semester I manage to gain about five to ten pounds. My self-esteem has plummeted in so many areas due to my ever increasing weight gain. It is very difficult to explain to many people when they don't understand about why you feel so uncomfortable and self-conscious about the weight gain but they think that you look fine. I try to explain to them add on 30 to 45 pounds or even more and let me know how you feel. Ten billion people telling you that you look fine is not going to convince you to feel good about yourself. The truth is I feel lost & uncomfortable in my own skin. It doesn't matter if someone else thinks that I look good thick, but if I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin that sometimes I don't even want to leave the house at times because of my weight gain, there is a problem. How can I envision myself becoming a nurse in the future and becoming a role model for others and giving advice to others on healthcare if I am overweight, do not eat healthy, need to become more active, and have low self-esteem. I should be able to at least practice what I preach. I was always the small girl in the size 5 or 7 and could wear what ever I wanted (still have all them clothes, refuse to get rid of them). Pound after pound, my weight increased from under 130 to above 175lbs and will continue to rise if I don't change my habits. Unfortunately food (bad food) has been my outlet for means of comfort as well as time management, which has drastically added to my quick weight gains during the school semesters as well as being less active. With school & working so much it is very easy to take the easy road to eating fast or processed food. Now my desire to go out or see anybody is completely gone and excuses are the only thing that seem to come out of my mouth so that I don't have to go out anywhere. The truth is I feel miserable. I know that I want to lose the weight but I constantly put off everything to the next day. I can no longer wait until tomorrow and need to make this change in my life happen today. I need to become me again.

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